It was the dawn to a new day. The sky was getting ash in colour but I remember someone said that dawn is darker than the midnight. Our main character, Nurya who boarded off her flight half an hour ago was walking down the street with her big tort bag. The river was right next to the street and she could see it if she peaked from here and there, but it looked nothing like a river, but a noisy dark road.
No one was to be seen around apart from some runners. Some of the coffee shops and bakeries were being open. Nurya waited at the other side of the road till one of the coffee shops opened. She remembered it well from her childhood, although now it had a different name.
The “closed” board was turned to the other side “open” Nurya, who was waiting under the coldness of the dawn of her hometown, rushed into the coffee shop in search of some warmth.
She smiled faintly with the staff and found a nice corner to sit. She kept her tort bag aside and took out the letter from Thalia once again. She was reading it all the way on the flight,yet couldn’t make anything out of it. She ran her fingers through her braided hair which was now 30% grey.
“I need you to forgive me” Thalia said in her letter. She remembered that handwriting all from her childhood Thalia was writing letters to boys.
This shop used to be a bakery, which was their stop in between their school and afternoon classes. She watched Thalia write letters to her lovers and friends, she knew this handwriting too well.
“I know I’m dying. Nur, I’m not angry with you for not being by my side.” Nurya’s heart sank once again when she read these words.
“Good morning ma’m. What do you want from our menu? Excuse us for getting a bit late with your order because we are just opening.” A staff member approached her and startled her.
When she went through the menu, what she found out was some latest American breakfast options. She couldn’t help but remember how the bakery which used to be here had nothing but different kinds of rotis, milk and sherbet for breakfast.
“Bring me a cream cheese bagel and Americano, no sugar” Nurya briefly said.
She booked a flight back home as soon as she received the letter from her childhood friend. Now this town had no one she knew since all her friends and family moved all around the country. She didn’t have contact with Thalia after leaving the town. Strangely, Thalia didn’t contact her either, until she was at her death bed.
“I’m writing with great regret I was carrying in my heart for four decades now.” Thalia wrote, in handwriting Nurya knew so well although they were crooked with old age.
“I stole something which meant the world to you back then. You never knew and left the town. I learned that you found a good man and got married. I was relieved to hear that because I thought you were heartbroken. Someone will bring the other part of the letter if you go to “River side Bakers” at around 9 am on any Wednesday in the month of September”
Nurya wouldn’t have come all the way from the city if not for this strange request. That was everything written on the letter. It didn’t have an ending and left her in curiosity to read the rest of it. Although she went through it again and again, she failed to meet the ends at any cost.
She waited and waited till the morning dawned and the atmosphere got warm. She took off her jacket and enjoyed the morning sun coming from the cafe glass windows. The cafe was filled with busy corporate workers and school children. She was running her eyes all around to see her messenger.
She was glancing on to her third cup of coffee to stop from dozing off when someone tapped on her shoulder.
“Nurya,” he said in amazement!!!
She turned behind to see him and almost slipped her coffee on the white plastic table.
“Stephan!!!” She almost screamed.
Almost. They were everything but “almost” they almost made it to be a couple but failed.
“Sit down Stephan” she said when she could talk finally.
40 years ago
Stephan sat before Nurya on a starry night. It was the circus day in the town and she was allowed to be out till 10 pm. Her parents thought she was with Thalia and other girlfriends but she was sitting with Stephan.
Stephan fell in love with Nurya at first sight. They were young and sparkling young love was creating a warmth between them. She was blushing all the while because she was coy, and he loved her for that. He couldn’t forget her braided long hair. Above all, he couldn’t forget the mushy and tender lips of hers when they exchanged the first ever kiss of their lives.
They sat straight on the bench scared by the reaction from their bodies following the kiss. Nurya jump sat on to his lap and kissed him once again. She broke off the chain in his neck and kissed it.
“Can I have this?” She asked.
“Keep it Rosy, what will you give me in return? He asked. Nurya smiled mischievously at him.
Now
Stephan noticed that Nurya had aged elegantly. But the girl in his mind had thick black hair and pink lips. Her white skin has crumpled, just like his.
He sat beside her and touched it. He didn’t believe she must have aged. In his mind She was as young as the day he saw for the last time.
“What brought you here?” He asked her.
“Thalia sent me a letter, an unfinished one. She said she has a gift for me if I come to this cafe around this time on Wednesday. It felt weird but since it was a request from her, I couldn’t resist it” she replied. His face turned dark.
“You never came, you never came to see me!” Stephan accused.
“But you never told me before you left. You were gone when I woke up one day.” Nurya replied in return. Her lips shivered as she remembered that day.
“But you…” Stephane’s jaw clenched in anger but the waiter wanted to know if he wanted anything.
“Flat white coffee with two sugars” Nurya said in memory.
“With no sugar,” he corrected.
“I think I have what you were looking for, the other letter from Thalia. She gave it to me at her death bed and said I’d have a gift at this cafe if I came to it at around 9 in the morning in September. She insisted I carry this letter with me. It isn’t addressed to anyone, since you have the other part of it, I think it belongs to you.” He kept on saying. Nurya felt her hands were numb when he gave her the sealed envelope. How did he know Thali that well, to give him a letter at her death bed!
She opened the letter.
“Nur, please read this letter aloud so that Stephan can hear it too” the first line read. So she read the rest of it for him to hear as well.
“I don’t know if I should write this to apologise you two. I’m already dead if you read this and curse me as much as you want. Nur, Stephan left you a message before he left for medical school that summer. You were out of town with your family and he gave me a note with his address to write to him and go see him. But I never gave it to you because…”
Nurya was interrupted by the waitress with Stephane’s coffee. She looked at his eyes while he silently took the cup. Their eyes were entangled in one another.
“I never gave it to you because I always liked him. He had looks and brains and I admired him as much as half of the town did. I never told you about the note until you left the town heartbroken. Once you left, I went to see him at the college and started seeing each other. When I got to know that you two were extremely close, we had already got married and I was carrying his child. As much as I felt bad for you Nur, I couldn’t turn back, and I didn’t.”
Nurya was trying to hold back her tears as much as Stephan was trying to hold back the anger and the betrayal done by his late wife of forty years.
“You two will hate me, but let me fix my mistake at my deathbed.” Thalia ended the letter.
“I think I should leave now.” Nurya said. “I’m sorry I lived all these years with hatred towards you. But you should also know that you were my measuring stick of love all this while. I never stopped thinking of you.” She said.
” I hated you all these years too. I felt betrayed because you never wrote to me. Thalia said that you were seeing someone new. I hated you but I could do it only for one year” Stephan said.
“I’m sorry Stephan. I should leave now. We both got the answers to our questions.” Nurya kept some currency notes on the table and left, Stephan followed her way out.
“At least let me accompany you back to a bus stop, airport or a hotel!” He almost shouted behind her. The day was fully dawned now. The sun was out and shinning, just like that morning after their first night on the circus day.
Stephan paced fast behind Nurya to keep up with her.
“I couldn’t hate you anymore. You were the only reason for me to wake up every morning. Thalia couldn’t love me like you did, but at least she was close to you. I’m not ashamed to say that I saw you in her all the time, when we made love, when she carried our baby, even when we fought, I saw no one but you in her. She aged but in my head I saw you young and full of life. I didn’t know how you aged. But you know what, you gave me fuel to live my days all these years.” Stephan stopped running after her because he was too tired and panting.
Nurya stopped and held him immediately.
” I can’t stay for you Stephan. I have a husband and a daughter waiting for me to come back from this brief trip. They are my everything now.”
“But I want you to know that I have your chain under my pillow. It feels as warm as it used to be when I broke it off your neck.” Thalia got into a cab and left without looking back.
– ends